shadowsketcher94

i wonder just how much i mean to people. well.. that sounds vain. :/ not my intention, but i'm genuinely curious. Am i just a friend, or am i "essential" to them? how much do i mean to them? to.. to him? oh well! either way i exist and will enjoy my life. still... if i hadn't acted on impulse that night would things still be the way they are? prolly not- it wouldn't be so awkward as it is v//v eh. mistakes happen. i should've known it was useless, to not do anything, but at least things aren't  destroyed. Just... different. oh weeell. we'll graduate soon and i'll just become another name, eventually fading to a nameless face. i should pr

These bouts of darkness are getting worrisome.. they happen too much, with or without something to encourage them. At least when there's something happening I can understand it.. But these random ones are starting to scare me. I don't want help... I should be able to do this on my own. I have gotten this far..but it DID take two years.. and i still.. well. Let's not go there. Maybe I should get help. Pride is keeping me from it but... I don't know. I don't know what to do right now. So much confusion... What DO I do?

Hide your face. Hide your scars. Hide your past- Hide who you are. Hide from demons. Hide from haters. Hide from those who'll hurt you later. Hide from the darkness that consumes us all; Hide from the cruel fate that makes us fall.